ALL COLORS TURN TO GRAY

All Colors Turn to Gray

God I’m so fucked up and I don’t know what to do
I could put my trust in you but I don’t know
how long my heart can stay true
There’s not one thing in this world for me
I don’t deserve it anyway I’m better off they say
Just words and thoughts I type to you
and you still don’t get it do you

I’m melting down behind my eyes
all the colors turn to gray
So sad to hear just how I died
but I’m still dieing more & more each day
so don’t pull me too close to you
just keep me at arms length
Do I mean a shit to you
it’s what you say not just what I think

Wasted time is drifting by me now
I’m too stoned to think about it so
pop a blue and hit the green
If I could just talk to you
how much could I really say
It wouldn’t matter anyway nothing would change
Never get to see you but it must be a good thing
I wish I knew the truth of why you keep your distance

There’s this big hole in my heart and I fill it with toys
and books
and cds
and dvds
Geek boy, hiding behind locked doors
keeping out the world, if misery loves company where did I get all this hate