ONCE AGAIN

ONCE AGAIN

goodbye
I just keep on dying
it’s not like I’m really tryin
but too much of you has taken away

the ending
it feels just like the beginning
before and after depending
on how pretty you feel today

silence
how quickly it can turn to violence
in the face of your defiance
hate these silly games

whatever
just forget about forever
now turns into never
only me left to blame

disgust
in me you never trust
overflow about to bust
dripping wet with sin

words
just a bunch of useless words
all I have is words
without you once again

THE INFECTION

THE INFECTION

here I sit without you again
somewhere else but it’s not with me
never is never was never will
I’m always number 2 or 3

treated like shit but you like being smothered in it
feeling like shit but to me it’s all relative
walking in shit every step I take
looking like shit at least it’s not fake

will the phone ever ring
will you ever come see me
will my heart bleed
the closer you come to me

I really didn’t think I wanted to see you again
I really hoped I wouldn’t see you again
I want to hold you as I want to let you go
I can’t hold you and you won’t let me go

treated like shit but you like being smothered in it
feeling like shit but to me it’s all relative
walking in shit every step I take
looking like shit at least it’s not fake

will my sanity stay sane
as you whisper my name
will you infect me
like you did once before

will the phone ever ring
will you ever come see me
will my heart bleed
the closer you come to me
will my sanity stay sane
as you whisper my name
will you infect me
like you did once before

THE MILLIONTH TIME

THE MILLIONTH TIME

writing out little bits of chaos
alone in the dark minus the light
I sit here for the millionth time
I sit here like I always do

nothing heard is a sweet sound
you just keep playing lost & found
everything changes every damn day
I try so hard but can’t keep you away

you’re never here when I need you the most
someday a memory a ghost
I’m always here when you’re at your worst
that’s when I know I’m never first

there’ll be a time when you laugh me off
I’ll be the flame when you piss me off
it’ll be a lie when you pull me close
you can’t deny who you want the most

my mind betrays and I think of you
wounds I’ve sustained because of you
I must like the pain you put me through
cut up and scarred from your battle wounds

what’s love to you some strange attraction
crushing guys like me that’s your satisfaction
stabbed through my heart how do you do it
it’s such an art to you nothing to it